Sunday, March 22, 2015

Lord, help my unbelief

Many times as Christians we pray. As we should. But do we really believe that what we pray for will happen? Praying with believing faith is really hard for me. I've been so skeptical about things. Skeptical about miracles, answered prayers, and inspirational people.
I've been so, "Ha! That person is mistaking a regular and normal thing as divine intervention!" But today I was challenged about that.
A really good friend of my church came to visit this past week. This morning he preached on faith. Believing faith. Believing in the power of prayer. Prayer is powerful, but we as Christians limit its power when we don't believe. If we don't believe, then it won't happen.
Do we really believe? Whenever I pray and ask God to remove my depression, I expect it to come back again. And it has, and then it consumes me. But I have to believe. I believe that it will come back no matter if God takes it away or not. Then I limit God. I may learn from depression, but that doesn't mean it has to take over my life. The moment I believe that it will come back, it does. But if I just believe that it won't come back, maybe it won't.
Our beliefs affect our attitudes and behaviors. If we believe that depression won't come back, then we'll behave like that. And our behavior will affect other people positively. And making other people happy should make us truly happy too. See what simple belief can do?
That doesn't mean it's easy. It's hard to believe. But we just have to. All we had to do at salvation was believe. Why can't we apply that to prayer?
Maybe we don't pray for belief. Maybe we should pray for our unbelief. For God to take away our unbelief, thus giving us belief. We can't just say, "I believe." We have to mean it. Sometimes I wonder if I truly believe. I mean, I have all the head knowledge because I grew up in a Christian home, and I believed. But I didn't accept Jesus as my Savior until I was 11. I have the head knowledge that prayer truly works and I believe that it works, but can I truly accept it now just like I did all those years ago?
Just believe. I'm telling myself this, as well as y'all.
Lord, help my unbelief. Take away my doubts and depression and give me joy for the trials. Take away the unbelief and give me the hope and faith of a true Christian.

Saturday, March 7, 2015

Loving others

Just today, I posted on my social network how annoying Taylor Swift is. But how I love listening to Blank Space and Shake It Off. To me Taylor Swift is just so annoying!
But also today God convicted me of something. I wasn't loving others like I should be. Many celebrities are just so annoying, and I judge them. And lately God has been showing me by some sermons from my pastor, songs on Pandora about how we Christians should love others because words are just words without actions. Actions speak louder than words.
In the Bible, Jesus says that the second greatest commandment is to love others as you love yourself. He also says that the way we treat others is the way we treat Him. We can say all we want that we love God. But do we really? We judge others and hate them, and then we say we love God and love everybody. Do. We. Really?
I should love everybody for who they are. Everybody. Including celebrities and bullies. It is our job as Christians to love. God created us to give Him glory, and what better way than to love everybody. I mean, that's what Jesus's life was about. It's what Jesus was doing on this earth; lots of people hated him, and some loved him, and he loved even those who hated him. We should strive to be like Christ, then we should love everybody even the most annoying people in the world.
I love my sister Lena so much, but at times she can be SO ANNOYING!! At those times I just feel like hating her, but I can't because I love her too much. If we start a relationship with love and not hate, when that person does annoy us, we can't help loving them more.
It's so easy to hate people. It's so hard to love people. The Christian life isn't supposed to be easy. God knew that.

God tells us to love even the most annoying and unlovable people in the world. We don't have to agree with everything they say or do, but we do have to love them despite what they do and say.

I've made my choice, and it won't be easy. Do you want the easy route, or the opposite and love others? Make your decision.

Monday, March 2, 2015

Childlike Faith

Faith. Wow. It's so easy to say, but even harder to live out. Don't you think? Last night at church was testimony night. One of the older men, he teaches a Bible study, was saying that he wanted his faith to be more childlike. At first I was like "Wait. That doesn't sound right." But then I thought about what Jesus said, "if you have faith like this child..." and I was like "oh yeah". He then said all the Bible knowledge doesn't get us closer to God. When we have all this information about Him, it messes up our thoughts. We begin to fit God into this box and understand him limitedly. And I realized, maybe that's why I'm feeling so far away from God right now. I've been limiting him to this box, and when I pray I haven't been asking for what I would like. Like I only pray for the big things. That God doesn't care about the little things in life, he's too big for that. But, he doesn't do only the big things, He does little things.
I had been fitting him into this limiting box. And I'd been falling away from God for a long time. I hadn't been realizing it either. I didn't realize it until last night. But I told God that I knew I was wrong to do that. I confessed my sins, and repented. I'd been feeling apart from God, and I'd been trying to get closer. But I realized, I don't have to try so hard. I just have to do it, and get right with God. Let go of the sin that's holding you back. Run to Jesus and trust him.
Childlike faith is trusting God like a child trusts his parents. Trusting him no matter what comes ahead. To lay down the distractions of life even though it may seem like you can't live without it. Like Pinterest or Facebook or a certain TV show our Twitter or whatever it may be. If you ever feel like you're falling back search your life to see if there are any distractions in your life influencing you. And let them go.
Just LET IT GO, LET IT GO, CAN'T HOLD ON ANYMORE, LET IT GO, LET IT GO THROW AWAY AND SLAM THE DOOR, I DON'T CARE WHAT THEY'RE GOING TO SAY. LET GOD'S PLAN TAKE WING, HIS PLAN NEVER BOTHERED ME ANYWAY.